I laughed at this. I would print it off for my choir teacher if she didn’t hate me.
(Source: nat-cifuentes)
No… every post is not about you. I promise. I don’t have anything bad to blog about you. ;) Not yet… anyways. Just kidding! I said that to scare you! Hah! Let’s get dried fragon rolls soon. And hang out this year. And I miss you. I just saw you today though… and will tomorrow. Well, BYE. This was a post to reassure you.
I feel like I am the “friend” that people use when they have no one else around. When the people they actually want to associate with are not around… they find me. They talk to me or of they live here… we hang out. But then they find someone better to move onto. I’m just… there.
If you think I’m living the happiest life on the planet… you obviously know nothing about me. I wouldn’t trade it, though.
Today someone unexpected gave me a much needed shoulder to cry on and a hug and I don’t even know how to say thank you properly.
I just can’t do it. How can I tell myself I’m so happy? I know there is so much light in this world and light in the people and things around me… but the light in my heart is fading. I’m breaking. And I’m trying to fight it but I’m getting tired. Am I just being a wimp? I pray not. Not now… I’m so young. I’m fragile and boulders are being rolled down a cliff and straight into me until I can breathe no more. I hold my breath until there is nothing and then I finally scream. And it’s gone. But only temporarily… the anger fills my heart and dims the light I try so hard to keep. That’s just… it. I’m trying. So… why am I not okay?
